"I want to live as a normal mom"..."Honest feelings" in the diary left by the late Kim Sumi.

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The diary, which actress Kim Soo-mi confessed her honest feelings before she passed away, said, "I plead." It will be released on the 12th as a book called 'On Everything That Kills Me'.

The book contained the overall story of Kim Soo-mi's life, including her passion for acting and her family's story from her 30s to her last years in 1983, and the pain and anxiety hidden behind the life of a glamorous actor.

Kim Soo-mi has expressed her willingness to publish her diary as a book, and the bereaved family said she has released her diary as she has watched the pain Kim Soo-mi suffered in her later years. The book royalties will be donated in full.

Kim Su-mi was extremely stressed by a dispute with the company she was selling under her name until just before her sudden death on Oct. 25, which was also written in her diary from October to November 2023.

He said, "Every day is torture. "I can't eat or sleep without sleeping pills to see what kind of repercussions the article will have," and "The anxiety and fear of the past month were nightmares themselves. He expressed his painful feelings, saying, "I was worried that the article might explode over the company's lawsuit."

Kim Soo-mi, who suffered from panic disorder in her later years, wrote in her diary in January this year, "The pain of suffocation of panic disorder is like a grain of sand, and no medicine can cure it." "It was the worst time of my life, anxiety, fear, and so on," he wrote.

Among the contents of the late Kim Soo-mi's diary / Supplied by bereaved families = Yonhap News

The diary was also full of affection for work.

"If you risk your life to record, practice, play, and endure, there will be some price," he said. "You did a good job recording yesterday. With acting, let's sprint with the heart of debuting again in 70 years, and show the time to see it," and "I'm so thirsty for acting."What the deceased

wanted more than anything was a simple and peaceful life of writing in nature. Kim Soo-mi wrote in her 1986 diary, "I want more quiet, normal children's mothers than fancy popularity. "I want to work properly, plant small flowers in a cozy house, read good books, and wait for the children to return from school," he wrote.

Also in 2011, "I have one last wish. I want to live in a house with a yard, or with morning glory vines on the wall on the first floor. And I want to write," he said.

Meanwhile, the 49th memorial service for the deceased will be held at Yongin, Gyeonggi Province at 2 p.m. on the same day.

Reporter Park Sun-young of Digital News Team